Awe, the joys of pregnancy!

I'm almost to my second trimester! I really hope that means no more morning sickness! I've yet to go a day with out throwing up. but some days are better then others. they days I can't seem to keep anything down I hate so much! it makes me really worried for the babies sake. but thankfully that's only about once or twice a week. my sister is only a week behind me and not as bad as I am. I think she's lucky :) this week however has been the worst. I babysit two girls and one has had a headcold or flu or something. anyway I ended up getting it. of course this happens the weekend hubby leaves town so not only am I sick I'm missing my other half like crazy! I ended up just crashing on my parents couch to sick to do anything. I finally caved and called my ob who got me a anti biotic but I still have a really bad cough my ribs hurt so bad from it. my mother in law is just the sweetest thing! she knows how sick I've been and for the life of me I can't even get strength to clean my own house. Tanner helps a lot. but its my job. I just feel bad. and taking care of two little kids isn't easy. so my house is a mess and I'm always saying sorry to tanner and he just says "all I want is a happy healthy wife" but still. my mother in law is more then willing to do anything she wants to come help clean but I just feel awful I can't even ask but I love her to death and I'm so grateful for her! on other news. as of may 15th I won't be watching the girls anymore. but tanner is set in his ways that he doesn't want nor needs me to get a job so i'll be free to clean all then. and make dinner nights for me are so bad I haven't been able to really cook. but hopefully this will change it all! my mom is going baby happy! she has made so many baby blankets for both boys and girls and she's so sweet she is also making me maternity close. I have a nice little belly and can barley fit in any of my regular shirts. its hard knowing I'm getting fat and can't do aything about it. I look forward to giving birth and getting back in shape!

Pregnancy!!!

So before we got married Tanner and I decided we were going to wait at least a year to try having kids. we just wanted to be us. well so much for that one I'll tell you what! haha about 2 months later i just felt that need of "i need to be a mommy" but Tanner and I talked and decided we'd still wait, but more and more I was just being hit with that impression we needed to start our family. I'd be sitting at church and see little babies and just get so upset. :( Finally Tanner gave me a blessing since i was struggling so much, and that did it for him we then decided we'd start our family. however it ended up taking us 5 months to get pregnant, and month after month i just found it harder and harder for me. But i was blessed!!! when i took a test at six in the morning when i read the yes i just couldn't believe it!!! I just started yelling Tanners name and woke him up from a nice sleep and showed him i even cut my leg on something running to him haha. but i was just oh so excited!!!

But what drove me crazy is the doctor won't see you until your about 8 weeks. so April 6th Tanner and i both went to the appt. and they said "this will be the longest appt. because of all the tests" we were done in 30 min. but we saw the baby in the ultra sound and oh my goodness seeing the little thing was just so amazing and the heart beat and hearing it i was almost in tears!!!
In the Ultra sound picture it just looks like a peanut, but it didn't while watching it. i can't wait to see it grow!!! but i for sure have morning sickness! I throw up almost every morning and every night. my back is always killing me. but it'll be worth it in the end. even though i did tell tanner the next one he gets to carry. :D haha but what i find amazing and really fun is my sister NIkki is pregnant also :D I'm only about a week ahead of her. i'm due Nov. 12th on my sister Samantha's birthday and Nikki is due the Nov. 18th. even though i really doubt we'll give birth those days :D i am just so excited for this blessing even if i do feel sick all the time, and want to sleep all the time. i feel bad when i get sick on Sundays since it basically just kills me Tanner ends up going to church himself. but lucky the Miamaid is amazing and is always willing to teach my girls when I'm not capable of teaching. But hopefully now that I'm almost to the 10th week it'll calm down at 12 weeks. I'm only hoping. Tanner and i are SO excited for little Lucy Anne Barker or Isaac Tanner Barker. Even though we both really feel it to be a girl but I'll find out when i can no chance I'm waiting until this baby is born!